into the deep.

It keeps playing over and over in my head like a movie… the “accident” scene where everything changes in the blink of an eye. Last night, one of our closest friends fell and fractured his back. One minute it was pizza, laughter and sunsets… the next, we’re dialling 000, gathering the kids, and praying our hearts out. Fortunately (thankYou, thankYou) there was no damage to the spinal cord, so although it’ll be a while before he’s play-wrestling his kids again, he will be fine. We are so grateful. Grateful, too, for the startling reminder - clear and sobering as a slap - that life in this physical world is fleeting and wildly unpredictable. Any confidence I have in my capacity to protect / control / manage it, is utter delusion. Instead, I want to dwell, moment by moment, in that only sure, enduring thing… the Deep, that ocean of love that undergirds and throbs and woos and holds everything, way beyond our capacity to comprehend. Oh that I would remember this night, this lesson, and remain in this confidence, no matter what comes.

 

It keeps playing over and over in my head like a movie… the “accident” scene where everything changes in the blink of an eye.

Last night, one of our closest friends fell and fractured his back. One minute it was pizza, laughter and sunsets… the next, we’re dialling 000, gathering the kids, and praying our hearts out.

Fortunately (thankYou, thankYou) there was no damage to the spinal cord, so although it’ll be a while before he’s play-wrestling his kids again, he will be fine.

We are so grateful.

Grateful, too, for the startling reminder – clear and sobering as a slap – that life in this physical world is fleeting and wildly unpredictable.  Any confidence I have in my capacity to protect / control / manage it, is utter delusion.

Instead, I want to dwell, moment by moment, in that only sure, enduring thing… the Deep, that ocean of love that undergirds and throbs and woos and holds everything, way beyond our capacity to comprehend.

Oh that I would remember this night, this lesson, and remain in this confidence, no matter what comes.

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  1. liesesstuff profile image
    liesesstuff says:

    Wonderfully put in words the fragile nature of the physical life we are all experiencing now. I don’t know you or your friend but happy that he will one day again be playing w his children.

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  2. likeincense profile image
    likeincense says:

    Thanks for this reflection. The bones heal. His muscles ache. But he’s out there, working, ploughing his field, driving on, back and forth and forever making things happen. Praying over his family. Thanks so much, light held. Loved your tribute to your mother, too and her humble words that followed. We are watching over your family with prayer for your journeys. Much love

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  3. janetwishart profile image
    janetwishart says:

    Stunning and poignant words my friend! I pray the depth of last nights experience will continue to soak into being a rich moment of gratitude for the protection and provision over you all in those moments of fear & trauma. And may you carry with you the certainty of His strong arms around your precious family through every step into this next season. “For His eye in on the sparrow”. Also praying healing swift and complete to your friend and peace to family this holiday season as he recovers! Xx

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  4. berskiesnersk profile image
    berskiesnersk says:

    @lightheld how can it be that in so few words I felt at once a pang of fear (for you), a melty appreciation for your care and generosity, and a deep sadness at not seeing or talking to you nearly enough. Watery eyes, goosebumps and a big sigh, ending with a smile. All in 20 seconds. You. Amaze. Me.

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  5. netti_b profile image
    netti_b says:

    I think I audibly gasped, confusion as to whether you were reminiscing of a moment in the past but realising the present state of this moment. Prayers sent heaven bound

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